Produce 101 Season 2 #22

Produce 101 has already ended! I'm feeling happy because my bias made to the top 11: Kang Daniel. Well, I have to say that this season is really interesting because the top 11 list keep changing every week. In season 1, it was always Somi or Sejeong on the top. I also feel pity because all the trainees are really great. They improved a lot since the first episode. I was like, can't all of them just debut?

The final was actually heartbreaking... Jonghyun, uri national leader and Samuel, the talented and skilled boy couldn't make it to the top 11. A lot of people predicted that these two will debut because they were really great, but they didn't. Despite the result, I hope all of the trainee do not give up on their dream. It is not the end of their career. I was actually happy that some of the boys didn't make to the top 11, like Hyeonseob. I prefer him debut with the other Yuehua trainees.

10 Favorite Foods #10

Since this is a food-related post, I write it after imsak because if I write it later, I don't know what will happen to my fasting. Lol. So, this time I will write 10 foods that I really enjoy the most.

1. Sate
Sate madura or sate padang will always be my favorite. It's really delicious and I have been craving it a lot these days. Well, I think I should buy sate for ifthor later.

2. Lontong pecal
This is my fav too. I prefer lontong pecal rather than any other lontong. I don't know why. But there are not a lot of lontong pecal that suits my taste. I'm kinda picky when it comes to lontong pecal. Not everyone can make it as delicious as my fav one.

3. Burger
Burger + french fries + coke = happiness. I know it's not that healthy. But who can resist the smell and the visual of that combination? Hahaha. Fortunately (?), the places that sell the best burger in the town is so far away from my house.

4. Cuanki
For those who don't know what cuanki is, just google it. Hahaha.. cuanki is siomay, batagor, bakso which is poured by the tasty broth. Yummmmy... it origins from Bandung, the food heaven.

5. Sarden
Even the sauce of sarden can is really delicious. It will never ever goes wrong, I think. I don't know why is this food so delicious.

I think those are the top 5. The rest are: 6. Gorengan, 7. Vegetable salad, 8. Siomay/batagor, 9. Martabak manis/telur and last but not least... 10. Mie instan!

Hmmmm... kinda hungry now. Lol.

Difficult Time in My Life #8

One of the difficult times in my life happened in 2013. It was the year of change, I think. In 2013, I graduated from senior high school and entered a new life: university life which is absolutely different from senior high school days. It was very difficult for me to start socializing with people who came from various places. I was not the type of people who get along easily with other people. But, after getting along with some friends, I was kinda relieved. 2013 was also difficult because of Manchester United. Sir Alex retired and the tv channel was changed. Moreover, I could not talk about football with my friends anymore since in my class there was no people to talk with. I think it was really difficult for me.

Last year, 2016, I also faced a lot of difficult times. It happened when I chose the KKN location and went KKN. Honestly, it was very difficult for me. But, I overcame it and feel that it was a great time. After KKN, there was another difficult time, PPL. It was hard because I have to wake up early every morning.

These times were very difficult, but then I realized that only if I enjoyed it, it will be slightly easier for me. Any difficulties that I will face in the future, I hope I will try to enjoy it and learn something from the difficulties.

Why Do I Blog? #7

I started blogging since junior high school. My first blog was on multiply which is now not available anymore. The reason why I start blogging is because I love writing. I think I express things better in written form rather than spoken. I feel more comfortable writing than speaking. When I have a lot of thought in my mind, I feel relieved after writing it down. It's kinda stress-relieving for me. And why do I choose blogging rather than writing a personal diary? Well, I do both. When blogging, I write down some general thoughts and my opinion or something that I want to share to people. On the other hand, my personal diary contains my privacy life (?) and mostly about my schedule.

That is why I love writing and blogging.

10 Songs I love Right Now #6

1. Whalien 52 - BTS
This song is one of my favorite BTS songs. The first time I listened to this song, I kinda like it. I searched up for the meaning and lyric of Whalien 52 and I really fell in love deeply with this song. Using the 52-Hz whale which is the loneliest whale in the world because of the different frequency from any other whale, this song portray loneliness, depression but also hope. Maybe that's why this song has a different vibe everytime I listen to it.
"That even if I cry no one will know... I'm a whalien."

2. 2PM - Suddenly
Did you ever feel like someone from your past suddenly popped up into your mind? Well it happened to me several times and seriously ruined my mood. This ballad song perfectly fit this situation.


3. Urban Zakapa - I Hate You
I love Urban Zakapa's songs, especially this one. It's really a beautiful sad song. I don't know how to say it, but this song is my fav.

4. Kyuhyun - At Gwanghamun
Kyuhyun's voice is just too perfect for ballad songs. It become one of my favorite after Fina sang it in koro-koro. Since that day, this song becomes an official duet song for Fina and me everytime we karaoke.

5. Sejeong - Flower Path
I listened to this song a long time ago, but then I re-listen it because of Seongjae. He said that this song gave him strength while doing his packed schedule. Seongjae was right. This song is beautiful and Sejeong's voice makes this song even more beautiful. Let's just walk in flower path, Sejeong-ah!

6. Ailee - I will come to you like the first snow
A really-jinjja-daebak-heol-wanjeon great soundtrack of drama Goblin. I can say that this is one of the best OST songs I've ever heard. This song got me crying like crazy.

7. Zion T - Yanghwa BRDG
I knew this song because of the duet: Zion T-Jungkook. It's a very unique song. I love the lyrics. I also love the Produce 101 version which was sang by Sejeong, Nayong's team. That was how I fell in love with Sejong. Hahaha...

8. BTS - Cypher (all part!)
This is my jam!

9. SHINee - Ring Ding Dong
The reason why I love this song so much is because this is the reason why I started being a fangirl. Yes, after being addicted to this song, I officially became a Kpop trash. Lol. The lyrics is also very unique and I just love it.

10. SClub7
I can't decide which of the Sclub7 songs is my favourite because all of them are my favourite. But if I have to mention some, it will be Bring It All Back, Reach and Never Had Dream Comes True.

Well, those are my favourite songs these days. I also enjoy listening to Produce 101 Season 2's five concept song and my favourite is I know You Know (sad to know all of the member were elominated). See ya in the next post!

Meaning Behind My Blog Name #5

Ok... this time I would like to write about this blog. Honestly, I never thought that this blog will survive until today. Lol. At first, this blog was made as a place to publish my fanfictions about SHINee. Why did I name it verysecretworld? It was because I want to hide my identity as a fanfiction writer. Well, as time passes... i realized that it was better for me to write whatever I want instead of just fanfiction (I never post those fanfictions, though..). And finally, it became my online diary. It is a very random but lovely blog of mine. I enjoy writing here eventhough I rarely write a post. I tried hard to write here because I believe many years later I'll thank myself for writing in this blog. I am a type of person who prefer writing rather than speaking so that is why I love blogging. In short, this blog was made as a secret blog but now it's not that secretive anymore. All hail, my lovely blog!

Worst Habit #4

My worst habit ever is sleeping after subuh prayer which is actually very unhealthy. Due to lack of sleep, I always sleep after subuh prayer except when I have morning class. I know this is a bad habit of mine but it seems like I can't stop doing it. Moreover in Ramadhan. Well it is normal to sleep after subuh prayer in ramadhan, but I feel slightly guilty. I tried hard to sleep early at night which never works. I usually spend my time checking my instagram, browsing and chatting before going to bed. I be like, "Ok...just ten more minutes." Then an hour, two hours passed just like that. The problem is, after being exposed by the phone screen in such a dark room, it is hard to close my eyes to sleep. Yes, I feel hard to sleep after playing with my phone. That is why I struggle hard to wake early in the morning (which actually never happen these days). I believe, I am not the only one who have this bad habit. A lot of my friends (6 out of 8) sleep after subuh prayer. They even didn't sleep before subuh. I have to do my best to overcome this bad habit. Wish me luck...

What I'm Afraid of #3

There are a lot of things that I'm afraid of these days, but my biggest fear popped up everytime I think about my future life. I feel unsure about that and that's why I am afraid. I can say that I am afraid getting older. More over this is my last year (Insya Allah) in university. I am quite unsure about things that I have to do after the graduation. It is absolutely different from 4 years ago when I graduated from senior high school. At that time, I only have one choice: university. Later when I gradute from this university, there will be numbers of choice that will form my living in the future. I feel like I am going to choose my future. Well, I do have some dreams but I feel lack of confidence these days. It is not that I give up my dreams, but I tried to view my dreams from a logical perspective. To be short, I think I need some motivation plus extra energy these days.

Well, this is my biggest fear I think. So random but this is deeply from my deepest heart.

My Favourite Quote #2

A few weeks a day, I read a long quote by Julissa Loaiza which is really beautiful. As a girl who is not yet matured and really concerned about her future, this quote really hits me. I realized that it is not only me in this world who worried about the future life.

"I know people who graduated college at 21, and didn't get a salary job until they were 27. I know people who graduated at 25 and already had a salary job.

I know people who have children and are single. I know people who are married and had to wait 8-10 years to be parents.

I know people who are in relationship and love someone else. I know people who love each other and aren't together. There are people waiting to love and be loved.

My point is, everything in life happens according to our time, our clock.

You may look at your friends and some may seem to be ahead or behind you, but they're not. 

They're living according to the pace of their clock, so be patient. 

You're not falling behind, it's just not your time." - Julissa Loaiza 

In my age, it is somehow annoying when adults start questioning my life. Well it's not only me but people in my age. When we were still students, they'll ask, "When will you graduate?" After we graduate, they'll ask, "When will you get a salary job?" After that they'll ask, "When will you marry?" Then they'll ask, "When will you have a child?" After that, "When will you have a grandchild?" They might even ask, "When will you die?". Such a burden.

It is true that sometimes we feel left behind other people who reached their success before us. But there is no use to be jealous. Even if we attend the same school, same university or even the same workplace, it does not mean that we have the same life as them. We have our own purpose in this life. We have different pace in this life. So just live our own life.

20 Facts about Me #1

The first post of this challenge is 20 boring and annoying facts about me, myself and I.
1. I am a last-year university student.
2. Slightly introverted.
3. Somehow perfectionist.
4. My blood type is an A positive.
5. Kpop and Kdrama trash.
6. My fav colour is red.
7. Manchester United's fan.
8. Lived abroad for four years.
9. I have an ambiguous English accent.
10. Really love detective novels, comics, and dramas.
11. I hate horror movies.
12. Eat really well but somehow picky about my foods.
13. I love daydreaming.
14. I want to visit many places in the world, esp UK and Korea.
15. I want an ordinary life.
16. An ARMY.
17. Not yet mature enough.
18. Once a troublemaker when senior high school.
19. Quite tactful.
20. Understand Korean, English, Indonesia, Sundanese and Minang.

Marhaban ya Ramadhan 1438 H

Alhamdulillah, Allah still gives the chance for us to meet ramadhan this year. I am feeling grateful and blessed. I hope it will be a better Ramadhan for all of the moslem around the world. Well in Indonesia the fasting duration will always be the same unlike in other countries. There are a lot of countries who will fast 20 hours or even more. There are also some countries who will fast less than 10 hours. Thus it's just right for Indonesians. 

I still remember last year I did a blog challenge in Ramadhan. So this time I also want to do another blog challenge. I had already compiled the titles for 30 days. The topics come from blog challenges that people do on their blog. It's quite interesting (at least for me) because last year I just write randomly (but it doesn't mean that I will write properly this time. LOL.). Beside that I will also write some other blog posts because it seems thst this year I didn't write a lot. I'll make sure to fill this blog with more random posts. Hahaha...

Hapy fasting, everyone!

Bukber Kru Pirates #27

July 2nd, 2016

Di hari ke-27 ramadhan, akhirnya Pirates kumpul. Setelah segala ke-rempong-an dan ke-ribet-an, kita pun finally bukber. Agak terharu ya, soalnya biasanya cuma wacana. Luar biasanya bukber kali ini adalah anggota Pirates yang datang dan ikutan bukan anggota geng lo-lagi-lo-lagi yang mungkin muka-mukanya udah bosan kita liat. Ada 16 kru pirates yang hadir, termasuk yang kuliahnya jauh, mereka yang sibuk dan susah ditemui. Hehe.

Sore itu, padahal janjinya jam setengah lima, kita kumpul di depan sekolah. Setelah lumayan lama, akhirnya kita pun menuju tempat bukber yang udah di-booking Andin. Overall, suasana tempatnya nyaman sih ya buat foto-foto alay /teteup/, tapi sayangnya mejanya disusun memanjang jadi kitanya susah buat ngobrol. Mungkin kalau mejanya disusun lebih baik, kita bisa ngobrol lebih enak dan lebih heboh. Hampir jam enam, teman-teman yang lain mulai berdatangan. Duh kangen bangeeeeeet liat mereka. Banyak yang udah tiga tahun gak jumpa. Kalau geng lo-lagi-lo-lagi mah gak usah ditanya. Hahaha. 

Setelah berbuka, kita pun sibuk foto-foto alay. Lucunya pas mau bayar, itu uangnya kurang. Jadilah kita lelang (?). Heboh banget ngumpulin se-rupiah demi se-rupiah, mirip pasar hebohnya. Kelar masalah bayar-membayar, kita selanjutnya cus ke tempat studio foto yang sebelumnya udah di booking Andin. Tapi minus 2 orang, Upa dan Cicay yang terpaksa pulang. Hiks. Sampai di tempat foto, subhanallah, orang ramai banget. Ternyata trend foto setelah bukber itu lagi hits banget. Karena kita udah booking, kita pun agak-agak setengah jam-an menunggu di luar. Tapi gak kerasa, soalnya kan sama kalian. Aceileeeh. Setelah sesi foto selesai, kita bukannya langsung pulang, malah transaksi foto. Alhamdulillah hasilnya bagus-bagus meski belum di-edit. Gak di edit aja bagus, apalagi setelah di-edit. Bah.

Well, thanks a lot untuk kru Pirates yang udah datang. Terbayar sudah kerepotan kita sebelum hari H. Thanks Api yang udah mau dengerin curhatan Mins via VN tiap malam dan ikut bantuin personal chat, untuk Andin juga yang mau repot-repot booking tempat makan dan studio, untuk teman-teman yang lain juga: Upa yang datang meski di rumahnya ada acara keluarga, Acun dan Taluk yang jauh-jauh dari Kerinci dan Taluk (lol), Najo yang padahal kurang fit, Cicay yang bela-belain datang pakai TM, Nulur yang hari itu padahal baru sampai PKU, Shelly yang bela-belain langsung dari bandara, Nenek yang (katanya) mukanya lagi bermasalah, Bubuns yang balik ke PKU lagi setelah pulkam, Mujek yang belum pulkam karena (katanya) nungguin bukber, Atuk yang baru sampai di PKU siang itu, Wiwid yang katanya sibuk shopping dan Papi yang langsung setuju ikut bukber. Mins terharu kalian responnya luar biasa, langsung iya tanpa ribet-ribet walau sebenarnya agak rempong. Makasih udah gak PHP dan gak cuma read doang. Hiks. Sini cium satu-satu. Eh.

Semoga kita bisa segera kumpul lagi di lain kesempatan, wedding Upa, maybe? Hahaha. See ya soon, friends.

Bahaya Fangirlingan di Tempat Umum #26

Pagi ini gue pergi service si Beat yang konon udah hampir setahun gak di service. Padahal jadwal service nya bulan November tahun lalu. Kasian si Beat, kurang perhatian. Maklum, pemiliknya sibuk. /jijay/ Jadilah gue pergi service si Beat. Kirain karena masih pagi tempat service nya ga ramai, tapi ternyata tidak saudara-saudara. Mayoritas bapak-bapak duduk nungguin motornya di service. Gue pun mendaftar dan akhirnya duduk menunggu.

Sedetik, dua detik, tiga detik... gue pun bosan. Keluarlah gadget dari dalam tas. Cek sosmed, manatau ada yang nge-chat. Tapi biasalah jomblo, ga ada yang chat. Buahaha. Gue pun akhirnya buka instagram dan mulai melihat satu persatu gambar postingan. Kebanyakan sih Bangtan.

Emang udah kodrat nya kali ya, tiap liat foto bias, fan girl bakal senyam-senyum ga jelas bahkan ekstrimnya bisa jejeritan sambil cakar-cakar aspal. Gue pun tanpa sadar mulai senyam-senyum gak jelas liat foto Namjun dan video duetnya dia. Subhanallah. Namjun ganteng banget. Nikmat Allah yang mana lagi yang engkau dustakan, wahai wanita. /baahhh/ Tiba-tiba gue tersadar, gue ada di tempat umum, di bengkel motor. Gue pun mendadak ngerasa di liatin sama bapak-bapak di seberang dan di samping gue. Tapi anehnya cengiran gue ga bisa ilang. Gue sampai mati-matian menahan senyum. Duh.

Jadi intinya memang bahaya fangirlingan di tempat umum. Padahal mah gue gak sengaja buka instagram dan nemu foto. Maka dari itu, untuk semua fangirl se-tanah air, mari hindari fangirlingan di tempat umum demi imej diri yang lebih baik. Hidup, fan girl!

[Review] Another Oh Hae Young #25

This drama just ended last Tuesday with 18 episodes. I'm saying this not only because I'm a fan of Eric, but this drama is great! It's a comedy romance drama which is seriously funny and romantic. The story line is really unpredictable. It makes you laugh really hard after crying bitterly. It mixed your emotion really well. At first, I started downloading this drama right after the first and second episode aired just because of Eric but then I found it interesting. It's not a typical romance drama which the two main casts fall in love easily. It's different from other romance drama. It's really complicated yet simple. This drama is not too drama I think. Not a drama that make me want to skip any scene. Ok, my explanation is getting weird.

The main character in this drama, Park Do Kyung (Eric) is a man who can see the future of his life. He was left by his bride, yeppeun Oh Hae Young (Jeon Hye Bin), before they get married and because of his friend, Jin Sang, he decided to take revenge. He ruined another Oh Hae Young's (Seo Hyun Jin) marriage plan thinking that it was the yeppeun Oh Hae Young's marriage he was ruining. Later Park Do Kyung and geunyang Oh Hae Young fell in love, but the situation is difficult for Park Do Kyung as he was the one who ruined geunyang Oh Hae Young's life. The two Oh Hae Youngs even meet again in the same company. Other casts story is also interesting to be watched, the Jinsang-Sookyung's relationship, Park Hoon-Anna's lovey-dovey story, even the Park Hoon and trio workers in Do Kyung's company. They are very hilarious. Though Do Kyung is a strict boss, but they do care a lot. They even went for a beach date when Do Kyung was sad. The other interesting casts are Oh Hae Youngs parents, especially Hae Young's mother. She really loved Oh Hae Young and I feel it very realistically. I love her way expressing her love towards Oh Hae Young by cursing, hitting and even dancing together.

I personally think Erics acting is great as usual. Hehe. The crying scene really breaks my heart into pieces. Lemme hug you, oppa. Eh. Seo Hyun Jin's acting is also natural. I wonder if she is really like that in real life. Her crying scene is not usual; it makes me cry together with her. The way she speaks is also cute, but not the type of cuteness that makes you cringe. Every time she feels shy, I was smiling really wide. Ah, Eric-Seo Hyun Jin's chemistry in this drama is wonderful. I didn't feel jealous at all. Couldn't they just be real couple and get married? Hihi. The other Oh Hae Young, thr beautiful one, was supposed to be hated because she left Do Kyung on their marriage day, but I can't hate her even more after Do Kyung decided to forgive her. She's too nice and too beautiful too be hated. She even supported Do Kyung-Hae Young's relationship even though her heart breaks. Moreover she kneels in front that Mr. Jang for Do Kyung. I love this onni!

I sincerely recommend this drama! You have to watch it. Im not a type of person who really enjoys sad-mellow, romance drama, which is why I enjoy this drama. The rating of this drama is also high; it beats Cheese in the Trap and Misaengs highest rating. It proves that a lot of people watch this drama. Ah, forgive me for this bad review. There's too much things about this drama that I wanted to write here, that's why it becomes this messy. Another thing I like from this drama is the OSTs. If you like sad songs, try listening Jung Seung Hwan - If It Is you (Another Miss Oh Hae Young OST part 5) and Ben - Like A dream (Another Miss Oh Hae Young OST part 2) and if you like a hyper/happy song, listen to Seo Hyun Jin & Yoo Seung Woo - What is Love. It refreshes my heart. Lol. Happy watching!

Shinhwa! pt.2 #24

Shinhwa is known as the longest-running idol in Korea. They have their own charms that made a lot of people fall deeply. Their variety sense are known well in the industry since they appeared in X-man, Love Letter and many programs in the past. They were keen to sacrifice their 'nice' image as we can see in their programs, include SNL Korea. Eric even let them to pull down his pant and revealed his underwear. Seriously SNL Korea was really too much for me. I laughed a lot but it was too dirty. Lol. /save me, I'm innocent/

In Shinhwa Broadcast first episode, Hyesung wore a big size sandal and decided to put down his image to be funny. Junjin was hilarious too because of his Invisible Man role. Luckily he wore a tank top after not wearing anything beneath the Invisible Man outfit. Eric also gave up his manly image in Shinhwa Broadcast. He dressed up as Ericsunnamun in Super Juniors episode, Ethilda in Fashion Show episode, and Etevie Wonder in MT episode. I cracked up really hard watching those episodes. He even blamed Minwoo for turning him into a woman. It was not only Eric blaming Minwoo, but Minwoo also blamed Eric for giving him the nickname, Special Stupid. Dongwan was said to be a witty guy, but in Shinhwa Broadcast he is known for his weird comment/gag and earned the nickname, Dong-hole (Donggumong). The CG was hilarious too. Andy was cute as always, but the Olympic episode was surprising. He transformed into a zombie and it was really creepy. His eyes were rolling terrifyingly at the same time as he attacked his hyungs. I'm sure all of Shinhwa fans will agree if they do another show like Shinhwa Broadcast. However their ages are suitable enough to be in a program like Return of Superman. Hehe.

Talking about how old they are now, I think it is the age of them to get married. Ah, they're old enough but are we ready? They were also asked a lot of times in some programs about the marriage issues. Eric said he wants to be the first to get married and he thinks that if one of them gets married, the other member will follow the path. Just like when they went to military service, Eric first and followed by the rest. We all know the day of their marriage will come sooner or later, just prepare our heart. Duh.

The other interesting thing about this dorky oppaeul is their relationship with the fans. Shinhwa and Shinhwa Changjos relationship is somehow different from any other idol-fan relationship. I remember reading a fan account saying that once Shinchang and GOD fans were involved in a fight and GOD fans won. While GOD said "Please dont fight." Shinhwa said, "Did you win? You lost? Why did you lose?!" There were a lot of fan account stories that made me laugh really hard. Dongwan ever mentioned that he lectured a fan and that fan never came back again to their dorm. A lot of them even hid away every time Dongwan appeared near their dorm. Shinhwa also often throws food from their dorm towards Shinhwa fans that were waiting outside their dorm hoping they would go home.  It was a funny yet romantic relationship between Shinhwa and Shinhwa Changjo.

Indeed, people who do not know Shinhwa would think that they are a bunch of middle-aged men who are really serious about their life. Forget it. These oppadeul still like messing and fooling around, acting not like their age. They are really dorky and somehow weird, especially that leader oppa who really likes to behave beyond our imagination. People may think he is a serious and calm leader. Don't be deceived guys! He has a 4D personality which surprises a lot of people.

Being together for more than 18 years, their friendship is really no joke. They are more than just partner or friends, more likely a family. Hyesung, for example, sent flower for the member's parent on parents day. They helped and supported each other and that is really romantic of them. They said that they fought a lot in the past, even because of fart. Lol. That is why they are still able to be together. They don't hold grudge but just talk about it directly and even fought over it. That is Shinhwa. :)

Shinhwa! pt.1 #23

I think I never write about Shinhwa here, so that's why this time I will tell you about Shinhwa. Hehe.  The first time I know Shinhwa is more than a year ago (I think almost two years). I watched all episodes of EXO 90:2014 and on the third episode Lee Min Woo and Shin Hye Sung was the guest. I didn't focus too much on them because Sehun and Kai were way too cute in that episode /forgive me/. After a while, Bubuns said that she liked Shinhwa and she recommended me to watch their program, Shinhwa Broadcast, because it was really funny. It was Bubun again who successfully turned me into a Shinhwa fan. I was deeply in love with them because of their unique charm, especially Eric. Shinhwa broadcast was really hilarious. Their variety sense was jjang! 

Shinhwa in Korean pop industry is the longest-running idol. Debuted in 1998, it was their 18th anniversary last March. I believe that their bond as a group is stronger than any other group. As we know a lot of members withdrawn from their group lately (Jessica, Minzy, Sulli, Jia, Lee Joon, Thunder, etc) and also a lot of idol group disbanded (Kara, 4minutes, Jewelry). It was really sad actually. But although many groups have fallen apart, Hyesung said that they never talked about disbandment before. Tha'ts how I realized that there is something special from Shinhwa. They are still active nowadays, even though they haven't made a comeback this year. They held a concert to celebrate their 18th anniversary last March with Shinhwa Changjo.  

I might be biased (cause Im a fan) when writing this, but I have to tell you that Shinhwa is really an amazing group. They debuted in 1998 with Resolver and it was not a smooth debut. They did not gain popularity as expected. Fortunately their second album, T.O.P, was very success. In 2003, Shinhwa moved from SM Entertainment to another company because of the expiration of their contract. In fact, each member (except Dongwan) said they were offered an individual contract by SM, but they still want to stay in the group together. That is why they decided to move to another company and keep being together. 

After they moved to another company, it was actually not that easy. They didn't have a right of their name, Shinhwa. I don't really understand the problem because it was complicated, but to be short, they weren't able to freely use the name Shinhwa for the past 17 years as a group. In May 2015 Shinhwa finally gained full rights to use the name Shinhwa after 12 years. I believe it was not a simple process to gain it. They even had to go to court against the company to fight for Shinhwa's name. 

There were a lot of hardships that Shinhwa have been through. In the 4th album, Andy didn't participated because he had to go back to America due to his mother's illness. It was a hard time for Andy and also Shinhwa members. Junjin who is known with his bright personality even experienced panic disorder. Also Hyesung and Andy were once involved in a gambling scandal. I'm sure Minwoo and Dongwan ever experienced individual problems that were hard for them. Eric as a leader of course also had been through a lot of difficult time. But the fact that they are still in the industry, singing on the stage without changing any members is really a remarkable achievement. They are role models of junior groups, showing that 18 years without any change is possible to be achieved. A lot of people only know Shinhwa because of they are the longest-running idol, but Shinhwa is something more than that. They are people who always work hard, loyal and do not know how to give up, one more, they are people who always try to keep their promise with their fans. Shinhwa Changjo should be really proud of Shinhwa.  Shinhwa-san!

The Power of Fangirl #22

A lot of people around me often look down on k-pop and k-drama lovers. They call us alay just because we like boy band and Korean dramas. That happens for a long time, even until now. One of my male friends often said bad things about K-pop and K-drama especially when we were caught fangirling in our campus area. I often involve in a never-ending argument and found it very tiring. So I decided just to let him talk whatever he want and curse secretly behind him. Lol.

Well, most of those people think that a real man in their definition is a man who acts like a man, in other word, manly man. In our country, it is a typical man who do not wear makeup, do not dance, do not hug other man or even kiss them. Heol. Anyway, many of them are actually manly men. They work out, play sports, and many other. I think when they hug each other it is how they express their bond. Even more they live together and spent hard times before debut together, so it is not strange for them to express it that way. Some fan girl might agree with me, but the problem is people around me dont agree. They keep saying that k-pop idols are gay or whatsoever. Im tired. Lol. 

There are also some people out there, mostly girls who also teased (should I say it mock) us when we were discussing about the boyband at school or even screaming (fangirling mode on) in front the laptop watching the oppa's MV or whatever. They be like, "Korea again... alay." But then after months, years, they became a K-popers and K-drama lovers and I was like, "Look who was talking bad things about Korea." We call it karma. Duileh. Thus if you don't really like something, please do not talk bad about it. Who knows when you really hate K-pop you would watch DOTS and fell in love deeply with the Big Boss. Lol lol.

I just want to say to people out there who call us alay just because we like K-pop and K-dramas, do not ever look down on us. Fan girls, no matter alay we were, are loyal people. We are bold enough to defend our oppa from any bad comments that come from you guys. We always stand by our oppas side even though we know that they dont know we do (?). We are also people who are willing to sacrifice our time, energy and even money just to support our oppa. That's how kind and precious a fan girls heart is. Lol. So, don't you dare look down on us. 

Fan War (My 1st One) #21

This is a really 'childish war' that usually happens between two fandoms, in this term K-pop fandoms. It typically happens when a person comments an article in such inappropriate way by talking bad about other groups or trying to compare their fav group with other group. It becomes a fan war when other fans from other fandom replying to the comment to defend their idol group. For some people, it is about the pride of their idol. Some of them act like they speak behalf of their fandom, but actually they often humiliate their own fandom by writing rude comments to other fans and their idols.  

I once involved in a fan war. Well, actually it was not a fan war. I spent my night commenting in many articles saying that uri oppa is not wrong. It happened when Ikon released their light stick which the color was orange. SHINHWA's leader, uri Eric-oppa took action by writing on their facebook , addressing to any junior K-pop group if possible, try not using orange since it is used by SHINHWA and SHINHWA CHANGJO for 18 years. Then a lot of people (international fans) commented that Eric is childish, why Eric should say that, I used to like you before, do you own orange? So am I prohibited to wear any orange color in my body? Act like a senior, etc. I was reading those comments and I felt really really mad. I wasn't mad because of the color, but because they judge Eric like they really know the situation. (Ugh my anger is slowly rising now. Lol.)  Eric is the CEO of SHINHWA company and I think it is really appropriate for Eric to speak on behalf Shinhwa members and the fans. Is it childish? Eric even wrote down his name on his post, showing that he himself was responsible enough to write that statement in their official facebook page. If he was childish, he wouldn't write his name, letting the post being anonymous. The comments were really childish because a lot of them comment like, you don't own that color. Cant I wear orange as my clothes or even underwear? Dont wear orange, guys. SHINHWA owns orange. I was laughing ironically. The issue was about official light stick color, not your underwear color, you silly. For Kpop group, color is their identity, their pride. I feel bad when people say it's only a color. No, it's not. It's more than that, guys.

The side effect of the fan war that I found it hard to sleep, my hearts beat faster and my anger was rising really high. It's not healthy, guys. I think most of us have a tendency to defend our fandom, but it is important to be wise. Try control our emotion before involving in a fan was which is somehow tiring and immature. 

Understanding K-culture #20

Being a fan girl is not as easy as it looks like. It is not only about the boyband/girlband or the drama but more than that. We also have to understand the culture and language. There are a lot of case where international fans judge the Korean idols or fans because of their attitude or reaction towards something. A lot of them be like, "Why is he behaving like that? Korean netizen is too much, Why are they so butthurt?" or many comments like that. Well, all of us have a different view toward something and I'm sure that view is shaped by our culture. It is our culture which decides whether or not something is appropriate. 

For instance, Baekhyun, Chanyeol or other EXO members call Kai, dark kid, a lot of international fan say that they are being racist towards Kai. Well, I think in Korea it is not racist. In my country, I think it is not really a big deal calling a person like that. A lot of people here call each other based on their appearance. Sometimes it is annoying, but it is something usual here. Lol. Thus, do not look at a foreign culture based on your culture. 

In some situation, some international fans blame the Korean netizens for being overly sensitive. I think it is not because they are overly sensitive. It is more likely that the netizens think it is something inappropriate in their culture. It is not something that their culture can tolerate with. Well, I think that is the case. Hence, we have to consider a lot of things when commenting or viewing a situation. Don't just blame the Korean netizens. Try to view it from their perspective, their culture, not ours since it is a foreign culture. We are only a foreigner of their culture. I hope we can be a wise fan girl. Hehe.

International Fan Problem #19

I've been deeply into Korean pop and drama for many years, I guess 8 years. It was SHINee's MV, Ring Ding Dong, which turned me into a fangirl. I remember playing the MVs several times a day just to watch Keys face. Yes, I was a Lockets before I fangirl over Choi Minho. I spent my senior high school days as a SHINee fan. Fortunately it was not only me but there were also Upa and Taeri (Najongers) who also liked SHINee. After graduating from senior high school, I liked Big Bang then Exo. Now, I'm a SHINHWA and BTS fan. Ehehe.

As a person who has been fangirling for years, I'll tell you some problems that usually happen and bother us, international fan. Hehe. The first one is no subtitle when watching Korean programs. Luckily nowadays a lot of people include the fandom sub the videos, but back then it was somehow rare. So sometimes we have to wait for a long time or even just watching it without knowing what they say. Yes, we kinda use telepathy to know what our oppa is saying. LOL. So, I'm really grateful to all subbers out there who dedicate their time and energy just to sub the videos. It's really really really helpful. The second one is you have to spend a lot money, at least to buy internet package for downloading videos, dramas. I have to tell you, internet package for Korean fangirl is something crucial. It's better not to buy new clothes rather than being kudet. It becomes more essential since I become a BTS fan. They often release videos and I feel like I'm really kudet if I don't update their news. You also have to spend a lot of money buying their albums, dvds, merchs. Third, it's really hard to see our oppa. You need to spend money (again) to be in their concert or fanmeeting. It is harder when you live far away from the capital city of your country. Hiks. I envy Korean fans that bump into the idols on street/café/shop and took a selca or ask for their sign. It's really sad. 

Those are the main problems I think. I'm sure there are more. Can I ever watch their concert, meet them, take a selca or even stare at their face? Heol. Hahaha let's start saving.