Produce 101 Season 2 #22

Produce 101 has already ended! I'm feeling happy because my bias made to the top 11: Kang Daniel. Well, I have to say that this season is really interesting because the top 11 list keep changing every week. In season 1, it was always Somi or Sejeong on the top. I also feel pity because all the trainees are really great. They improved a lot since the first episode. I was like, can't all of them just debut?

The final was actually heartbreaking... Jonghyun, uri national leader and Samuel, the talented and skilled boy couldn't make it to the top 11. A lot of people predicted that these two will debut because they were really great, but they didn't. Despite the result, I hope all of the trainee do not give up on their dream. It is not the end of their career. I was actually happy that some of the boys didn't make to the top 11, like Hyeonseob. I prefer him debut with the other Yuehua trainees.

10 Favorite Foods #10

Since this is a food-related post, I write it after imsak because if I write it later, I don't know what will happen to my fasting. Lol. So, this time I will write 10 foods that I really enjoy the most.

1. Sate
Sate madura or sate padang will always be my favorite. It's really delicious and I have been craving it a lot these days. Well, I think I should buy sate for ifthor later.

2. Lontong pecal
This is my fav too. I prefer lontong pecal rather than any other lontong. I don't know why. But there are not a lot of lontong pecal that suits my taste. I'm kinda picky when it comes to lontong pecal. Not everyone can make it as delicious as my fav one.

3. Burger
Burger + french fries + coke = happiness. I know it's not that healthy. But who can resist the smell and the visual of that combination? Hahaha. Fortunately (?), the places that sell the best burger in the town is so far away from my house.

4. Cuanki
For those who don't know what cuanki is, just google it. Hahaha.. cuanki is siomay, batagor, bakso which is poured by the tasty broth. Yummmmy... it origins from Bandung, the food heaven.

5. Sarden
Even the sauce of sarden can is really delicious. It will never ever goes wrong, I think. I don't know why is this food so delicious.

I think those are the top 5. The rest are: 6. Gorengan, 7. Vegetable salad, 8. Siomay/batagor, 9. Martabak manis/telur and last but not least... 10. Mie instan!

Hmmmm... kinda hungry now. Lol.

Difficult Time in My Life #8

One of the difficult times in my life happened in 2013. It was the year of change, I think. In 2013, I graduated from senior high school and entered a new life: university life which is absolutely different from senior high school days. It was very difficult for me to start socializing with people who came from various places. I was not the type of people who get along easily with other people. But, after getting along with some friends, I was kinda relieved. 2013 was also difficult because of Manchester United. Sir Alex retired and the tv channel was changed. Moreover, I could not talk about football with my friends anymore since in my class there was no people to talk with. I think it was really difficult for me.

Last year, 2016, I also faced a lot of difficult times. It happened when I chose the KKN location and went KKN. Honestly, it was very difficult for me. But, I overcame it and feel that it was a great time. After KKN, there was another difficult time, PPL. It was hard because I have to wake up early every morning.

These times were very difficult, but then I realized that only if I enjoyed it, it will be slightly easier for me. Any difficulties that I will face in the future, I hope I will try to enjoy it and learn something from the difficulties.

Why Do I Blog? #7

I started blogging since junior high school. My first blog was on multiply which is now not available anymore. The reason why I start blogging is because I love writing. I think I express things better in written form rather than spoken. I feel more comfortable writing than speaking. When I have a lot of thought in my mind, I feel relieved after writing it down. It's kinda stress-relieving for me. And why do I choose blogging rather than writing a personal diary? Well, I do both. When blogging, I write down some general thoughts and my opinion or something that I want to share to people. On the other hand, my personal diary contains my privacy life (?) and mostly about my schedule.

That is why I love writing and blogging.

10 Songs I love Right Now #6

1. Whalien 52 - BTS
This song is one of my favorite BTS songs. The first time I listened to this song, I kinda like it. I searched up for the meaning and lyric of Whalien 52 and I really fell in love deeply with this song. Using the 52-Hz whale which is the loneliest whale in the world because of the different frequency from any other whale, this song portray loneliness, depression but also hope. Maybe that's why this song has a different vibe everytime I listen to it.
"That even if I cry no one will know... I'm a whalien."

2. 2PM - Suddenly
Did you ever feel like someone from your past suddenly popped up into your mind? Well it happened to me several times and seriously ruined my mood. This ballad song perfectly fit this situation.


3. Urban Zakapa - I Hate You
I love Urban Zakapa's songs, especially this one. It's really a beautiful sad song. I don't know how to say it, but this song is my fav.

4. Kyuhyun - At Gwanghamun
Kyuhyun's voice is just too perfect for ballad songs. It become one of my favorite after Fina sang it in koro-koro. Since that day, this song becomes an official duet song for Fina and me everytime we karaoke.

5. Sejeong - Flower Path
I listened to this song a long time ago, but then I re-listen it because of Seongjae. He said that this song gave him strength while doing his packed schedule. Seongjae was right. This song is beautiful and Sejeong's voice makes this song even more beautiful. Let's just walk in flower path, Sejeong-ah!

6. Ailee - I will come to you like the first snow
A really-jinjja-daebak-heol-wanjeon great soundtrack of drama Goblin. I can say that this is one of the best OST songs I've ever heard. This song got me crying like crazy.

7. Zion T - Yanghwa BRDG
I knew this song because of the duet: Zion T-Jungkook. It's a very unique song. I love the lyrics. I also love the Produce 101 version which was sang by Sejeong, Nayong's team. That was how I fell in love with Sejong. Hahaha...

8. BTS - Cypher (all part!)
This is my jam!

9. SHINee - Ring Ding Dong
The reason why I love this song so much is because this is the reason why I started being a fangirl. Yes, after being addicted to this song, I officially became a Kpop trash. Lol. The lyrics is also very unique and I just love it.

10. SClub7
I can't decide which of the Sclub7 songs is my favourite because all of them are my favourite. But if I have to mention some, it will be Bring It All Back, Reach and Never Had Dream Comes True.

Well, those are my favourite songs these days. I also enjoy listening to Produce 101 Season 2's five concept song and my favourite is I know You Know (sad to know all of the member were elominated). See ya in the next post!

Meaning Behind My Blog Name #5

Ok... this time I would like to write about this blog. Honestly, I never thought that this blog will survive until today. Lol. At first, this blog was made as a place to publish my fanfictions about SHINee. Why did I name it verysecretworld? It was because I want to hide my identity as a fanfiction writer. Well, as time passes... i realized that it was better for me to write whatever I want instead of just fanfiction (I never post those fanfictions, though..). And finally, it became my online diary. It is a very random but lovely blog of mine. I enjoy writing here eventhough I rarely write a post. I tried hard to write here because I believe many years later I'll thank myself for writing in this blog. I am a type of person who prefer writing rather than speaking so that is why I love blogging. In short, this blog was made as a secret blog but now it's not that secretive anymore. All hail, my lovely blog!

Worst Habit #4

My worst habit ever is sleeping after subuh prayer which is actually very unhealthy. Due to lack of sleep, I always sleep after subuh prayer except when I have morning class. I know this is a bad habit of mine but it seems like I can't stop doing it. Moreover in Ramadhan. Well it is normal to sleep after subuh prayer in ramadhan, but I feel slightly guilty. I tried hard to sleep early at night which never works. I usually spend my time checking my instagram, browsing and chatting before going to bed. I be like, "Ok...just ten more minutes." Then an hour, two hours passed just like that. The problem is, after being exposed by the phone screen in such a dark room, it is hard to close my eyes to sleep. Yes, I feel hard to sleep after playing with my phone. That is why I struggle hard to wake early in the morning (which actually never happen these days). I believe, I am not the only one who have this bad habit. A lot of my friends (6 out of 8) sleep after subuh prayer. They even didn't sleep before subuh. I have to do my best to overcome this bad habit. Wish me luck...

What I'm Afraid of #3

There are a lot of things that I'm afraid of these days, but my biggest fear popped up everytime I think about my future life. I feel unsure about that and that's why I am afraid. I can say that I am afraid getting older. More over this is my last year (Insya Allah) in university. I am quite unsure about things that I have to do after the graduation. It is absolutely different from 4 years ago when I graduated from senior high school. At that time, I only have one choice: university. Later when I gradute from this university, there will be numbers of choice that will form my living in the future. I feel like I am going to choose my future. Well, I do have some dreams but I feel lack of confidence these days. It is not that I give up my dreams, but I tried to view my dreams from a logical perspective. To be short, I think I need some motivation plus extra energy these days.

Well, this is my biggest fear I think. So random but this is deeply from my deepest heart.

My Favourite Quote #2

A few weeks a day, I read a long quote by Julissa Loaiza which is really beautiful. As a girl who is not yet matured and really concerned about her future, this quote really hits me. I realized that it is not only me in this world who worried about the future life.

"I know people who graduated college at 21, and didn't get a salary job until they were 27. I know people who graduated at 25 and already had a salary job.

I know people who have children and are single. I know people who are married and had to wait 8-10 years to be parents.

I know people who are in relationship and love someone else. I know people who love each other and aren't together. There are people waiting to love and be loved.

My point is, everything in life happens according to our time, our clock.

You may look at your friends and some may seem to be ahead or behind you, but they're not. 

They're living according to the pace of their clock, so be patient. 

You're not falling behind, it's just not your time." - Julissa Loaiza 

In my age, it is somehow annoying when adults start questioning my life. Well it's not only me but people in my age. When we were still students, they'll ask, "When will you graduate?" After we graduate, they'll ask, "When will you get a salary job?" After that they'll ask, "When will you marry?" Then they'll ask, "When will you have a child?" After that, "When will you have a grandchild?" They might even ask, "When will you die?". Such a burden.

It is true that sometimes we feel left behind other people who reached their success before us. But there is no use to be jealous. Even if we attend the same school, same university or even the same workplace, it does not mean that we have the same life as them. We have our own purpose in this life. We have different pace in this life. So just live our own life.

20 Facts about Me #1

The first post of this challenge is 20 boring and annoying facts about me, myself and I.
1. I am a last-year university student.
2. Slightly introverted.
3. Somehow perfectionist.
4. My blood type is an A positive.
5. Kpop and Kdrama trash.
6. My fav colour is red.
7. Manchester United's fan.
8. Lived abroad for four years.
9. I have an ambiguous English accent.
10. Really love detective novels, comics, and dramas.
11. I hate horror movies.
12. Eat really well but somehow picky about my foods.
13. I love daydreaming.
14. I want to visit many places in the world, esp UK and Korea.
15. I want an ordinary life.
16. An ARMY.
17. Not yet mature enough.
18. Once a troublemaker when senior high school.
19. Quite tactful.
20. Understand Korean, English, Indonesia, Sundanese and Minang.

Marhaban ya Ramadhan 1438 H

Alhamdulillah, Allah still gives the chance for us to meet ramadhan this year. I am feeling grateful and blessed. I hope it will be a better Ramadhan for all of the moslem around the world. Well in Indonesia the fasting duration will always be the same unlike in other countries. There are a lot of countries who will fast 20 hours or even more. There are also some countries who will fast less than 10 hours. Thus it's just right for Indonesians. 

I still remember last year I did a blog challenge in Ramadhan. So this time I also want to do another blog challenge. I had already compiled the titles for 30 days. The topics come from blog challenges that people do on their blog. It's quite interesting (at least for me) because last year I just write randomly (but it doesn't mean that I will write properly this time. LOL.). Beside that I will also write some other blog posts because it seems thst this year I didn't write a lot. I'll make sure to fill this blog with more random posts. Hahaha...

Hapy fasting, everyone!

[Review] Good Manager, Chief Kim

If you are not a fan of lovey-dovey romance drama, I recommend you to watch Chief Kim. This office comedy drama is really refreshing and I have to say this drama is really jjang! The drama is about Chief Kim (Nam Goong Min) who was used to work for gangs and begins to work for a company, TQ group. He actually planned to "steal" a lot of money (to go to Denmark, his dream country) but he accidentally becomes a righteous man. Together with Yoon Ha Gyeong (Nam Sang Mi) and the accountant team, Chief Kim does his best to save the company. It was not easy because he has to face the TQ group executives include the arrogant but charming ex-prosecutor, director Se Yool (Lee Jun Ho). Eventhough Seo Yool was such a jerk (sorry, Junho!), as the drama goes on, we can see that he is actually a nice person. Well he has a very confusing character.

I started watching this drama because of many articles saying that this drama is funny and really worth it plus there is Nam Goong Min who previously starred Gong Shim. So I decided to download it after 6 episodes aired. AND... YES! It is really funny!!! I think that Chief Kim is really a sly and an unpredictable character. His bromance (and frenemy) scenes with Seo Yool are hillarious. That kiss scene between them...I think that's the best scene in this drama. LOL.

Episode 8 was the episode which turned me into a Lee-Junho-trash. YES! That evil yet charming gluttonous sociopath stole my heart that I started to download many 2pm videos and shows. I never knew that he was this charming. Huehehe...

Other reasons why you have to watch this drama:
- Moral value (Hahaha...)
- No love scene (except that kiss scene LOL)
- The bromance and love-hate relationship between Seo Yool and Chief Kim
- Park Myeong Seok's (chairman's son) tanzania speaking skill
- Chief Kim's unpredictable actions
- Seo Yool's meokbang
- Seo Yool's face (?)
- Seo Yool himself
(Forgive me for giving out these random reasons. I'm really a Junho-trash now. LOL.)

Well, this drama already ended last March and the rating was great too. This morning (17/4), the casts fulfilled their promise by giving out coffee to workers. Chief Kim, ajaaaa!!

Donor Darah - 1st experience

Sejak baca webtoon tentang personality golongan darah, gue jadi berpikir sebenarnya golongan darah gue apa sih. Jadi, dulu waktu SMP pernah cek golongan darah dan hasilnya AB. Waktu itu yang periksa kawan sendiri di acara EXPO sekolah. Nah, ketika di MAN (iya, gue gak pernah SMA) tepatnya di pelajaran Biologi, kita ada praktek cek golongan darah dan… hasilnya golongan darah gue A positif. Loh?

Sampailah tadi pagi, gue ke kampus buat galau bareng Aulia. Hahaha. Kebetulan saat itu ada bus donor darahnya PMI di depan gedung kampus. Iseng-iseng ngomong ke Aulia, “Eh… pengenlah donor darah.” Sebetulnya gue ngomong begitu karena dua bulan lalu ada acara donor darah di SMA, tapi karena berbagai pertimbangan (masih takut) gue gak donor.  Nah sejak itulah gue pengen coba donor darah. Aulianya jawab, “Yok aku temani. Yoklah.” Gue pun sempat ragu sebenarnya karena berbagai mitos yang beredar hahaha. Katanya yang bakal lemas sampai ada yang pingsan setelah donor. Aulia pun kayaknya semangat banget nyuruh gue donor. Akhirnya gue bilang bakal cek darah dulu, kalau emang kondisinya boleh, ya Wallahualam deh. Yang terjadi maka terjadilah.

Maka, dengan niat yang gak sampai seratus persen buat donor, gue pun mulai mengisi formulir donor. Gak sampai lima menit kemudian, gue masuk bus-nya bareng Aulia. Gue pun duduk dan diperiksa sama dokter. Aulia mukanya tegang+langang padahal yang bakal donor juga siapa kan. Sejujurnya, gue gak takut sih. Kepala gue cuma dipenuhi pikiran, bisa gak sih gue donor? Apa gue se-sehat itu buat donor? Gimana kalau… eh. Tapi alhamdulillah walau belum sarapan gue bisa donor kata dokternya. Golongan darah gue pun diperiksa, dan ternyata… A positif, sodara-sodara. Gak lama setelah itu, gue pun duduk di kursi donor. Nah, disini lah baru nervous karena sebelumnya gak pernah ada riwayat disuntik jarum segitu panjangnya. Dan ternyata… gak sakit sama sekali. Cuma terasa dingin sebentar. Lebih kurang 15 menit-an, proses donornya pun selesai. Sama orang PMI-nya dikasih jus, biskuit, obat penambah darah dan juga kartu donor.

Alhamdulillah, hari itu dilalui dengan baik-baik aja. Malahan agak aktif karena persiapan surprise ultahnya Delvi. Cuma sorenya agak capek aja sih. Selain itu juga, barusan pas buka plesternya, kulit gue agak membiru-ungu gitu. Searching di google barusan katanya itu bakal hilang, jadi gak khawatir sih. Malam ini gue banyak baca artikel di google tentang donor darah (padahal harusnya sebelum donor ya hehe) dan benar sih… secara psikologis kita merasa bahagia setelah donor darah. Walau belum tau ya darah kita bakal dipakai atau enggak, tapi rasanya senang. Jadi, buat teman-teman yang darahnya baik-baik aja (?) dan masih sehat, ayo donor darah.

PPL ends

After 3 months, this program will be ended soon (3 days from today). I really learned a lot from this program. I have to say that being a teacher is an extremely hard job. So in this occasion I would like to say thank you to all teacher in the world, especially those who taught me.

I feel it’s really hard because since this school use Kurikulum 2013 revisi, there are a lot of things that must be prepared before teaching. We have to prepare LK.1 until LK.4 which includes the analysis, RPP, and many others. It’s also worsen by the reality that English is only taught once a week (2x45 minutes). How could they learn English well if it is just taught once a week?

I also helped the teacher preparing the questions for semester test, assessing the semester test result, analyzing the score, input the final score, sending it by email, and also preparing the e-rapport which is really draining my energy. Actually it is not really hard doing the e-rapport, but facing the fact that you have to edit 40 data and print 16 pages for each student (which means we have to print 40x16=640 pages) is quite startling. Fortunately it was only for one class though. I kinda feel sorry for the teachers who don’t really know how to use it. For us who can’t live without our gadget, of course it’s not a big deal, but not for some teachers. Some of them are really great, some of them can operate the computer/laptop but it needs longer time for them and even the others cannot really use it. I am not dissing them, because this is the fact that the government need to know.

So, if you ask me whether or not I want to be a teacher, the answer is no (with a deep sigh). I am not really sure actually. Lol. I want to improve the education in this country (my big dream), but could I really do it just by being a teacher? I really hate the fact that NILAI is everything. In this country, grade determines your future. Is it fair? In short, through this PPL program I realized that the education system in this country is not that good. I realized that my knowledge is not enough. I kept on thinking what did I learn in university? Why does everything seems different? (another deep sigh) I think I have to learn harder before being a teacher. Fighting.

2017

A lot of things happen in 2016. Actually in the beginning of 2016, I was hoping that I could skip this year since there are two things in this year that I could not avoid. But now I realize that 2016 was a year of many new experiences. In the beginning of the year, I traveled abroad and that was the really first time travelling abroad, alone (not literally alone, Im with my friend), without my parents. It was great, seriously.

I also experienced the annoying process of selecting the KUKERTA location. I have to say that it was a hard time for me, mentally. I didn't want to go away from home for two months and live in an unfamiliar place with some unknown friends and socializing with people whom I dont know. My brain was filled by strange thought for about three or four months before I realized that I was wrong. It was not that bad. I was grateful that I didn't reset my choice and choose another location. It was another great experience in 2016. I met new friends and a new family.

After KUKERTA, it was the time for PPL. A lot of things crossed to my mind after finishing PPL. I gained a lot of new knowledge and experience. I have to say that being a teacher is hard, physically and mentally. I haven't decide whether or not I will be a teacher, because it was not easy.

In short, I think I did well in 2016. Lol. Of course I lack a lot, but I'll try to be a better grown-up this year. Fighting!