Meaning Behind My Blog Name #5

Ok... this time I would like to write about this blog. Honestly, I never thought that this blog will survive until today. Lol. At first, this blog was made as a place to publish my fanfictions about SHINee. Why did I name it verysecretworld? It was because I want to hide my identity as a fanfiction writer. Well, as time passes... i realized that it was better for me to write whatever I want instead of just fanfiction (I never post those fanfictions, though..). And finally, it became my online diary. It is a very random but lovely blog of mine. I enjoy writing here eventhough I rarely write a post. I tried hard to write here because I believe many years later I'll thank myself for writing in this blog. I am a type of person who prefer writing rather than speaking so that is why I love blogging. In short, this blog was made as a secret blog but now it's not that secretive anymore. All hail, my lovely blog!

Worst Habit #4

My worst habit ever is sleeping after subuh prayer which is actually very unhealthy. Due to lack of sleep, I always sleep after subuh prayer except when I have morning class. I know this is a bad habit of mine but it seems like I can't stop doing it. Moreover in Ramadhan. Well it is normal to sleep after subuh prayer in ramadhan, but I feel slightly guilty. I tried hard to sleep early at night which never works. I usually spend my time checking my instagram, browsing and chatting before going to bed. I be like, "Ok...just ten more minutes." Then an hour, two hours passed just like that. The problem is, after being exposed by the phone screen in such a dark room, it is hard to close my eyes to sleep. Yes, I feel hard to sleep after playing with my phone. That is why I struggle hard to wake early in the morning (which actually never happen these days). I believe, I am not the only one who have this bad habit. A lot of my friends (6 out of 8) sleep after subuh prayer. They even didn't sleep before subuh. I have to do my best to overcome this bad habit. Wish me luck...

What I'm Afraid of #3

There are a lot of things that I'm afraid of these days, but my biggest fear popped up everytime I think about my future life. I feel unsure about that and that's why I am afraid. I can say that I am afraid getting older. More over this is my last year (Insya Allah) in university. I am quite unsure about things that I have to do after the graduation. It is absolutely different from 4 years ago when I graduated from senior high school. At that time, I only have one choice: university. Later when I gradute from this university, there will be numbers of choice that will form my living in the future. I feel like I am going to choose my future. Well, I do have some dreams but I feel lack of confidence these days. It is not that I give up my dreams, but I tried to view my dreams from a logical perspective. To be short, I think I need some motivation plus extra energy these days.

Well, this is my biggest fear I think. So random but this is deeply from my deepest heart.

My Favourite Quote #2

A few weeks a day, I read a long quote by Julissa Loaiza which is really beautiful. As a girl who is not yet matured and really concerned about her future, this quote really hits me. I realized that it is not only me in this world who worried about the future life.

"I know people who graduated college at 21, and didn't get a salary job until they were 27. I know people who graduated at 25 and already had a salary job.

I know people who have children and are single. I know people who are married and had to wait 8-10 years to be parents.

I know people who are in relationship and love someone else. I know people who love each other and aren't together. There are people waiting to love and be loved.

My point is, everything in life happens according to our time, our clock.

You may look at your friends and some may seem to be ahead or behind you, but they're not. 

They're living according to the pace of their clock, so be patient. 

You're not falling behind, it's just not your time." - Julissa Loaiza 

In my age, it is somehow annoying when adults start questioning my life. Well it's not only me but people in my age. When we were still students, they'll ask, "When will you graduate?" After we graduate, they'll ask, "When will you get a salary job?" After that they'll ask, "When will you marry?" Then they'll ask, "When will you have a child?" After that, "When will you have a grandchild?" They might even ask, "When will you die?". Such a burden.

It is true that sometimes we feel left behind other people who reached their success before us. But there is no use to be jealous. Even if we attend the same school, same university or even the same workplace, it does not mean that we have the same life as them. We have our own purpose in this life. We have different pace in this life. So just live our own life.

20 Facts about Me #1

The first post of this challenge is 20 boring and annoying facts about me, myself and I.
1. I am a last-year university student.
2. Slightly introverted.
3. Somehow perfectionist.
4. My blood type is an A positive.
5. Kpop and Kdrama trash.
6. My fav colour is red.
7. Manchester United's fan.
8. Lived abroad for four years.
9. I have an ambiguous English accent.
10. Really love detective novels, comics, and dramas.
11. I hate horror movies.
12. Eat really well but somehow picky about my foods.
13. I love daydreaming.
14. I want to visit many places in the world, esp UK and Korea.
15. I want an ordinary life.
16. An ARMY.
17. Not yet mature enough.
18. Once a troublemaker when senior high school.
19. Quite tactful.
20. Understand Korean, English, Indonesia, Sundanese and Minang.

Marhaban ya Ramadhan 1438 H

Alhamdulillah, Allah still gives the chance for us to meet ramadhan this year. I am feeling grateful and blessed. I hope it will be a better Ramadhan for all of the moslem around the world. Well in Indonesia the fasting duration will always be the same unlike in other countries. There are a lot of countries who will fast 20 hours or even more. There are also some countries who will fast less than 10 hours. Thus it's just right for Indonesians. 

I still remember last year I did a blog challenge in Ramadhan. So this time I also want to do another blog challenge. I had already compiled the titles for 30 days. The topics come from blog challenges that people do on their blog. It's quite interesting (at least for me) because last year I just write randomly (but it doesn't mean that I will write properly this time. LOL.). Beside that I will also write some other blog posts because it seems thst this year I didn't write a lot. I'll make sure to fill this blog with more random posts. Hahaha...

Hapy fasting, everyone!